Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life

I was just talking about this wish the other day.  When I look back over my years so far, this is the one thing that really stands out that I wish I had done.  I wish that after my first company went kaput that I had taken time off to travel.  I really thought about it, I did.  Taking six months to a year to go hither and yon before trying to find a new job.  I even went so far as to price out one of the "around the world" airline tickets.  But security won out in the end.  This had been my first job and I worried that I would have trouble finding another job.  And I was worried how a gap would look on my resume.  So I looked for a new job and when the right opportunity came, I left my first job and went directly to my second job.  It’s probably my biggest what if thought.  What if I had taken that time to explore the world?  I still think about it and my dream is to someday take a leave of absence and buy that around the world ticket.  One of these days....

From In the Violet Hour's 30 Days of Truth.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on

I seem to get a lot of compliments on the color of my hair.  Being a redhead definitely has its advantages – you are easy to pick out in a crowd!  The downside being fair-skinned with freckles and prone to sunburns (although this is not just a redhead thing).  And maybe a temper? J  I happen to embrace my red hair (could be why I love Anne of Green Gables, although it took her a lot longer to embrace her red hair).  And as my mom has told me many, many times - my hair is red, not orange.

From In the Violet Hour's 30 Days of Truth.  

Day 10: Someone you need to let go or wish you didn’t know

First off, don't forget to enter in my giveaway if you haven't already! :)

I'm not going to go into too many specifics on this but there is a relationship that I need to let go.  I mean I have let go, but actually what I need to do is be okay with the fact it failed.  But failed is such a negative word.  Be okay with the fact that we aren't friends anymore.  For awhile, we were close.  However, I did not have a lot of self esteem and I felt that my role was to be a yes man.  Eventually I was being suffocated, but I didn't know how express myself or to stop being a yes man.  I wanted to be my own person.  Relationships are a two-way street and I wish I could have found a way to explain how I was feeling instead of slowly withdrawing.  I knew that for myself, I had to stop being a yes man.  But I didn't know how to put that in words.  I would like to be able to look back at this for the good things.  In a lot of ways this relationship helped set me free and showed me I could stand up for myself. 

From In the Violet Hour's 30 Days of Truth.

Day 9 : Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted

Oops - I thought I had set this to auto post.  Guess not!  I'm chiming back in on 30 Days of Truth.

I am a firm believer in the fact that certain people come in to your life at a certain time or season and then sometimes they leave. They aren't meant to be permanent in your life.  It doesn't lessen their loss.

Realizing that there have been people that have drifted out of my life makes me grateful when I look around and see the relationships that haven't drifted, especially with distance and time.  And I am thankful to those friends who haven't let me drift, when I easily could have drifted out of their lives.

From In the Violet Hour's 30 Days of Truth.

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

Of course, as soon as I hit post yesterday, I thought of better things that I wish to change about myself (such as my needing validation, my inability to express myself emotionally, etc.).  But what is done is done.

I'd have to say one thing I love about myself is being able to laugh in all sorts of different situations as well as at myself.  You know the saying you can either laugh or cry?  I like to think most times I will choose laughter.  But don't get me wrong - sometimes a good cry can work wonders.  I try to keep positive in stressful situations and just laugh.

From In the Violet Hour's 30 Days of Truth.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself

Happy November!  I don't know where this year has gone.  Or where October went for that matter.  I learned that November is national blog posting month (or NaBloPoMo), which is just like it sounds - posting every day for a month.  In that vein, In the Violet Hour is doing a 30 Days of Truth, I don't know if challenge is exactly the right word, but it's what I'm going with.  While I won't be posting every day, I might join in on a few prompts.  Like today's prompt!

Okay, something I hate about myself.  This could get really negative, really fast, because there are lots of things I don't like about myself.  So I'm going to copy Mandi's idea and instead focus on something I would change about myself.

I wish I wasn't so critical of myself.  And I don't need to compare myself to anyone else.  Everyone is different, and they have taken different paths.  It doesn't mean their path is the right one (just as my path isn't necessarily right for someone else).  If I try my best at something, I don't need to compare it to someone else to see if I measure up.  Their fill-in-the-blank is so much better than mine.  No - if I did my best, and as long as I know I did what I could, it is okay.  Even if it isn't perfect.  It is okay to be me.